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Okaay I know I promised to post about my fantastic Dunhuang trip... but guess what... I'm really really busy these days with packing up and having goodbye-meals with my friends here, so...

Aiyah just an excuse for being lazy. =) Anyway Dunhuang doesn't correspond to this blog's theme of being "In Beijing" so I think I'm guilt-free :)

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I thank God for sending me here.

It is no coincidence that this trip came about so easily after a trying period and it was just in time for me to get away from the tangles back in Singapore, to see the big world and see that life is so much more than my personal woes.

I had finally, finally grown out of the heartache. I thought it would never end. But when I looked back and talked about it and remembered and considered the future, I felt calm. To find that I am finally not hung up over him made me feel happy, somehow. I will wait for a man who loves me. I will wait for someone who not just fits my criteria, but also loves me. Surely, God has the best for me. My Lord, my God has not given up on me while I fall repeatedly, but gives me time and opportunity to grow. I have seen His work, His challenges, and it makes me believe all the more that He loves me and has the best for me.

I had believed that it wasn't possible to have someone like me, or that I wasn't a likeable person, but I was affirmed. I saw that while I had wallowed away in my pains I hid the true joy and energy that God had put in me. Time to start anew as the joyful and confident me.

We believe that we should be humble, but it does not mean that we do not believe in our personal charisma and strengths. Now I know what it is really like to be myself, full of joy and energy. I think I had that hidden away for years and years.

I had surprisingly a lot of contact and work to do with old folks, and I wondered why it had seemed like a difficult thing before. If it wasn't difficult to take 4 hour trips back and forth every two weekends to visit my granduncle and grandaunt, it wouldn't be difficult to make that 1 hour trip to visit my grandmother.

When I was here, there wasn't any real problem with basic needs. In fact, I don't recall having met any serious problems that put dampers on this trip. When I was lonely, He sent me friends, He sent me sister Bryna with whom I could share my spiritual and emotional struggles and her with me. Such, is the depth of the Lord's love and care. He doesn't just care that I get fed and clothed. He saw that I am cherished and protected. There is no end to my thanksgiving.

The decision to go on the Dunhuang trip was very rushed, and yet I find myself giving thanks that I have made that decision. It was the highlight of this exchange trip and it was a beautiful conclusion to this visit of mine to China. The memories will follow me for a long time at least. In this trip, God let me see myself. I discovered that I love the sun, I love walking in the wilds, I love travelling, I love talking to people of other cultures. I love ruins more than museums, I love the sun more than rain, I love laughing more than sinking in melancholies. He let me see what I am and what I can be.

Knowing the various brothers and sisters and seekers of Christ here - it's been amazing what the Lord has been doing here in China and I am really glad that I've come here. There are no regrets, just a strong sense of fulfillment and gratefulness.

It wouldn't be my last trip to China, but I know that this one trip is special. There can never be another trip like this~
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And so concludes the FYIBBING blog. Thank you for being a reader =)

My farewell dinner

I had thought that I'll be leaving without having much real contact here...
But now I realized that I at least have this group of people...
My Dunhuang trip friends...






Thank you, people.
Thank You, God, for sending these people into my life.

我要回来了！

Best trip I've ever experienced

To a fantastic, mystical place, with the most fantastic people =)

Pictures and journals coming later ^o^

Dunhuang awaits!

Gone from 22 June - 2 July

观《三国演义》有感

• 拍大制作不容易啊，破绽多多呀。大战争场面除了前景的几组人来来往往打架，背景兵士大多明显是跑龙套的，骑着马走来走去不知道在做什么。
  

• 对于赤壁之战有个疑问：黄盖诈降，驾了20艘干草船去曹操战船队防火，问题是，20艘船全放了火，驾船的所有人都跑去哪里？放火后黄盖上岸（也不知道怎么这么快游上岸的）被射了一箭，多两个镜头就出现在东吴岸边（负伤游过长江？！）。奇怪啊……莫非……黄老将军会……飞？

• 实在是“一将功成万骨枯”啊。为了成就各国的争斗，总是要死成千上万的军人。成又如何，败又如何？成败皆有死伤。

• 最恶心的是吕布。三姓家奴，好色之徒。果真有钱便是爹。明明家有贤妻小女，还要垂涎于貂蝉，滥杀部下，反复无常。（史上的吕布也是小人一只，而且没有小说写得那么厉害。）

• 大家最喜欢的刘关张其实蛮讨厌的，刘备动不动就束手无策、泪流满面，输了就哭，还没输也哭。张飞像个任性小儿，关羽又骄傲得要死。（张飞暴躁、关羽骄傲，这是史实。）
  

• 赤壁之战让我看到曹操的大气。虽然他因骄傲失败，但失败不怪罪别人，反而一路败退一路继续鼓励将士们“生死有命，成败在天”、“胜败乃兵家常事”。不像刘备那厮，动不动就哭得死去活来，看到几个妇孺小子在逃亡中死去就要自杀，动不动就要跳江、刎颈。虽然显示他如何如何爱民、如何如何仁义，却也实在无聊。（当然，这样的刘备也是小说杜撰的。）

• 周瑜周公瑾实在被小说冤枉啊……讨厌罗贯中！！史上的周瑜风流儒雅，为人大度，是当代的少女杀手，“瑜长壮有姿貌”是个帅哥（老婆是小乔，三国时期有名的美女），没听说过他三妻四妾，可见公瑾重情。此君善音律，有童谣曰：“曲有误，周郎顾。”，说明你要周瑜看你多两眼，弹错音、拨走音就可以了。之前曾经瞧不起周瑜的老将程普最后也不得不服他，说：“与周公瑾交往，如同啜饮美酒，不知不觉就醉了!” 可惜他早去世，让偶们家小乔姐姐年轻守寡，不算好老公~
  

• 还是我的赵云赵子龙哥哥最man了♥
• 
  喜欢是没有道理的，不用解释了。o(∩_∩)o...